I just want to know
Why I love the taste of alcohol and cigarettes on a person’s tongue and why I like the smell of it off their breath.
I want to know why I can only focus on the music that plays and why I drown out everything and everyone else.
And I want to understand why I’m so indecisive and why I prefer other people’s definite decisions over my own.
I want to know why I forget about people and places so easily and why I’m so good at forgetting places and people on purpose.